Monsoon ...I Missed Her..!!

A lot of commotion deafened me. I felt a weight on my chest. How much I tried to lift open my eyelids but felt drugged… For one last time, I jerked myself awake and forced open my eyes to see that I had dozed off last night while reading.

But what was this endless hoof taps?? I had one quick look around the dimly lit room to find everything as it was the previous night. With sleep still hovering in my eyes, I dragged myself out of the bed wondering what could have been making such an unsoothing chorus….

Barefooted , I walked to the window and pulled apart the curtains that hung dark and heavy on my room. With every inch of the curtain giving way to the morning outside, my eyes grew wider and wider. With the last inch that the curtain drew, sleep seemed to have flushed out of my eyes…. I was aghast to see what I had never seen before…… The Monsoon Shower Of Noida.

I scuttled across the room looking for my slippers but they seemed to be fast asleep, somewhere away from my reach. The mesmerizing thought of enjoying the first spell became so obtuse that I let go off my search and ran to the terrace. Down splashed the rain across my face sending a chill, a feel of purity, innocence, freedom through every corner of my body. I stood there, all hypnotized by the aura of the beautiful morning that had settled on the city.

I let my eyes look a little distance away. The so far quiet trees swayed to the rhythm of the rains as if they too greeted the monsoons. As I edged on towards the creaking wall of the roof, I could just manage to trace out the outline of a twosome in the balcony of other side of park . I strained my eyes through the sheet of shower and there I could see that it was not only me and the trees who were enchanted by the spell but also a sweet couple, locked in each others embrace, kissing each other, welcoming the rains in their own special way, letting the rains rejuvenate their love, feeling the bloom of a new love in them.

The overcast sky, the refreshing rain,the dancing lush green trees, the loving couple…. Ah!

How much I missed HER !!!!!

" I wake up in the morning , to the sound of raindrops

And I wonder where you'd be, And I wonder if it's raining there

Wherever you are , I hope you think of me, When it's raining there.... "

When you are gone...!!

I loved you more than the words can say..

But I forgot to show it every day..

Now the days are gloomy, the nights are sad..

Where are the pleasantries I once had..

The lily n roses bloomed in the lawn..

I wonder where that serenity has gone..

The sky was beaming with hope and light..

Now the clouds of despair have obscured the sight..

I loved the care and tenderness you showed..

Now I am sulking...dejected and bored...

Why I have to go through all this..

When I was completely in bliss..

Why at all this happened...why you had to go...

I am so incomplete without you...didn't you know...

I thought everything was going fine...

But slowly the bond was losing its shine...

You were thinking I was getting indifferent and no longer care...

And I thought...my zeal to transcend - you will share...

You were thinking I am getting busier and don't have time for you...

And I thought...these tough days are just afew...

You were thinking I am not there when you need me much...

And I thought...you would feel the implicit touch...

You were thinking I always forget and get late...

And I thought...you would be a bit more patient and will wait...

You were thinking I was taking everything for granted...

And I thought...you'd understand what I really wanted...

You were thinking all your complaints are going in vain...

And I thought...things would be fine soon again...

"Two bodies, one soul" drifted further and further...

As if two strangers apprehensive of each other...

The sweet nothings gave way to sour arguments...

Bitter recriminations stole the cozy moments...

Finally...you decided to part...

I didn't know how to react...

You thought I'll stop you...

And I thought you'll stop on your own...

But that was not to be...

And the bridge that connected us was blown....

And we were stranded on our respective sides...

With bloated egos too stubborn to break the ice...

Now there's nothing left but to repent and repine...

Does it matter now...whose fault it was...yours or mine...??

An Answer I Seek..!!

I look out of my window,
lost in my thoughts,
watching the stillness,
waiting for something to move.

The only movement,
is the gentle sway,
of the trees in the wind,
dancing with the breeze.

There's nobody around,
on the road, the path,
in the park, or the sky
there's no life.

I watch the world,
from my comfort and warmth,
and I wonder where you are,
who you're with, what you're doing.

Are you thinking of me now,
as my thoughts stray to you,
I picture us out there,
together in the world.

Right now it's just me,
here with only my voice,
when it's yours that I want,
as I wonder if you're alone too.

You feel so close,
yet the distance is there,
suffocating as always,
as it keeps us apart.

My questions are left,
hanging in the air,
the silence drinks them in,
and the answers are lost.

Is somebody else,
thinking the same as me,
asking about you,
with nobody to answer them.